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I used to be a Lump of Coal but I'm a Diamond now!
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To the untrained eye the uncut diamond when discovered is just a piece of glass ,easily overlooked and discarded. Many diamonds when first found have faults within them, are rough around the edges dull and uninteresting, BUT - the craftman can see beyond the shape and the flaws, he see's great potential within each stone, he knows just how every chip and cut when carefully made will bring out the richness and full glory of the diamond.
The diamond cutter takes a deep look into the heart of the gem, he doesn't throw the stone away because it has a flaw, he finds the best way to get rid of that flaw so that all that can be seen is a multifaceted gemstone that catches the suns rays and reflects the light captured within every bespangled facet!
The radiance of it's beauty is like no other, as it soaks up every drop of sunlight spinning the most glorious star spangled rainbows into the air for all to see and admire.
Who would have thought that somthing so black and messy when handled would become a thing of such great beauty, admired and cherished by many people the world over today.
To give a diamond speaks of love, of relationship, of wealth, power.
Did you know that you are one of the most prized possesions within the treasure box of the Lord, that He longs to spend you on a dying world.
No matter how messy your life may be He sees great potential within you! He knows just what needs to be chipped away to make you a multifaceted person that reflects the full glory of His Son.
You are a thing of Great worth to Him, The Father has paid a great price to ensure that you belong to Him and to knowone else.
Just like the lump of coal you will no longer be a reflection of who or what you once were, you will no longer be a reflection of abuse, of abandonment, of shame, pain or guilt, no, in Jesus's hands He makes you whole, He brings healing, forgiveness, and deliverance into your life from the inside out.
As you begin to display His life within you others will be drawn to the beauty of that light, they will see somebody who's life is filled with the fire and the power of God, someone who reflects a grace beauty and love like they have never known and want to posses for themselves.
You are a precious child of God, paid for by the death and the blood of His Son Jesus so that many will be drawn to His life in you, a life that is rich and Vibrant, inspiring, exciting, and full of the radiance of Christ.
In revelation it says that 'They overcame by the Blood of the lamb and the word of their testimony'
Your testimony is a wealth of treasure stored up within you. You have come through the blackest night, you have allowed the hand of God to shape and mould you into a thing of great price and beauty, a treasure that He now wants release into your nation so that others will have that same hope of glory in Him.
Because you have overcome many hardships,and difficulties and have broken free into a life of freedom and joy others will want to know your story too, why not tell someone who needs to hear it today. Go and bear much fruit!
With love to you and your nation, Jesus in you will make a big difference to many. Every blessing Heather.
Anger and unforgiveness
Ephesians 4 - 26 - 27
26When angry, do not sin; do not ever let your wrath (your exasperation, your fury or indignation) last until the sun goes down.
27Leave no [such] room or foothold for the devil [give no opportunity to him].
On July 7th 2007 we opened the first healing rooms in Wales supported by the International Healing Rooms of Spokane, we are called Honey from the Rock Healing Rooms .
As I look back across the years one thing is for certain, and that is that I have been nurtured, encouraged and taught to believe beyond a shadow of doubt that Jesus is real and that He cares about my life, and the lives of those we are to pray for very very much.
The Lord has afforded me much grace over the years, and as I look back, I can hardly believe that the person you are about to read about was me. Its not a reflection of who I am now, infact as I look I am amazed at the wonderful work of the Spirit within my life to change me so much. I am so priveleged to have been taken hold of, and held closer than a whisper as the king of kings came, and became the love of my life. He brought more than restoration, he brought eternity into my life, excitement, and more than anything the will to live, and the will to see others lives filled with that same passion, hope and joy that I have been given.
I lived many years bound by fears of every kind, and my lifestyle was not a reflection of someone who had faith that could move mountains. As the years went by, after sexual and physical abuse, the failure of a marriage, and the death of a son through negligence in Hospital, I was a wreck. My life was going know where, I was 26yrs old, worn out, and broken. I was so ill that I had a nervous breakdown my life was out of control on every level and I was numb and scared.
From a very early age, I knew Jesus, and yet, there was no demonstration of power in my life, I was not who the prophetic words spoken over me said that I was to be. My life was on hold, and I was so frustrated that I cried most of the time, hating myself, my life, and those who had hurt me beyond measure.
Breaking point came as I struggled with agrophobia, for nearly 10yrs I was a vertual prisoner in my own home, afraid to go out alone, afraid for my family. I was a lonely, controlling manipulative woman, who was told that on an emotional level I was dealing with things as a 10yr old. No wonder my life was in such a mess.
I did marry again, and my husband Bob was truly heaven sent, he understood my pain, and tried so hard to stop the constant panics I would have if he was late home, or the children where not home on time.
The breakthrough came when at the end of myself I cried out to the Lord, and said that I was desperate, that I didnt want to die, I wanted to live, but that this was not life, this was a living hell, and I didnt want it anymore.
My testimony is that Jesus saved me, he broke the chains and set me free, my testimony is another story all of its own, but what I want to share is this.
Night after night I had allowed the enemy to have a foothold in my life, not only did I have a small scratch, but a gaping wound that was infected and was killing me.
In your anger do not sin. I was so very angry, my life had been ruined or so I thought by many people over the years. I blamed every body else and it never occured to me that the anger and unforgiveness I felt was a road block to the healing of my life. I felt justified to feel those emotions, I felt I had a right to feel those things, and I hung onto every memory as if it happened yesterday.
My actions caused a separation between the Father and I, because I couldnt come into line with his word. I knew that the bible said that we had to forgive, but I didnt see how on earth I could ever forgive, and then, there was the forgetting bit, how could I do that too?
You know, I was listening to Jack Deere speak in Wales, and he spoke on this subject and told us of how serious this condition is.
I knew that I had to forgive, but I didnt know how on earth I was ever going to, I had fought the hospital for 9yrs, to prove that they killed my son, only for us to be thrown out of court minates before the trial because our own solicitor had been negligent himself. I screamed and pounded the floor with my fists, the psycologist could not set me free, only Jesus could do that!
The lord brought me to the point where I knew that I could choose to forgive even If I didnt know how to and he would enable me to step into that forgiveness so that I could in turn be set free and forgiven.
11yrs on, its incredible to me that that verse is as real to me today as it was that very first time of hearing it, and acting upon it.
My two children had dreamt that their mommy was going to Wales to die the eve before I was set free, and I very nearly didnt go, but I had no hope, I was desperate, and I couldnt live life like that anymore so against all the odds I got on that train and went to Swansea
. You know what, mommy did die in Swansea, and she came back a brand new person, whole, and beautiful, free from anger and unforgiveness, and set upon a pathway to freedon from fear and intimidation.
I got home and my husband thought he had a new wife, we were all so excited.
Now I fly around the world, going into Israel, and the states, and various places, speaking and teaching. Jesus never wrote me off, He had faith in me even when I didnt. He saw the potential, and he knew the words spoken over me, it took faith on my part in the end to activate those words, and step into them.
I still get the odd pang every now and again, but I simply deal quickly with it. Anyone who has been through these sort of things understands how the smallest thing, a fragrance, a photograph, diary entry, person we see can trigger a memory.
The day I chose to forgive, I also chose life, and life in abundence. I didnt loose anything by giving up the hurt the guilt and the pain, what did happen was that I broke free from fear and bitterness, from a root that had taken hold of my life and was strangling me, and stepped into my inheritance in Him.
You know what, what the enemy meant for my harm the lord took, and he has formed and fashioned it into a weapon of mass destruction, that when aimed at the enemy totally destroys every attempt of him against the lives of those vulnerable like I was. I have watched so proud of Jesus as he smashed to smitherines the arrows fired at many through anger and unforgiveness, I watched as Jesus has healed, delivered and set free many hurting souls, and have seen how they in turn have learned how to live life to the full, and to teach others how to do the same, what a real joy to overflowing that is.
Even now as I type I feel such a rising up of faith, of hope, of expectation.
The Healing Rooms have been built upon years of prayer, and testimony to the healing wonderful power of the Lord, who loves us and wants more than anything that we live long healthy happy lives, free from worry and anxiety, sickness and torment.
As I look back, I see that the road behind me had many twists and turns in it, many stones that had to be removed. Its been a long journey, and it isnt over yet!
Healing is a gift of God to those who call upon his name and dare to believe that its a gift given for everyone of us, know matter who we are what we have done, what our lives have been like.
If you have anger and unforgiveness in your life, it needs resolving. Its a real problem for you, because it will be stopping you from stepping fully into the things of God set before you. His promises to you never fail, but you can cause a barrier between you and the Lord by not living His word in the way that you should.
The healing rooms are wonderful places, places where you can trust the people to keep your confidence, who will care very much about your personal walk with the lord, and who will through the laying on of hands bring you back on track, as you cry out to the lord for his healing and his help.
You are not alone.