Can You Hear It?
Off in the distance I hear a beautiful sound..........Crickets chirping, but more?
I hear the wind dancing; I hear the earth spinning on its axles.
I hear angels singing so divine that I feel the presence of God.
I can feel the music; I can see it!
I hear the stars, they sing as they shine just like the wind sings while it dances...
I feel I am much closer to heaven then I am to earth, but the sound of the train blaring in the distance
Brings me back to the reality that I am still here on earth!
Can you imagine hearing the wind, stars, earth and the angels all sing at once?
I can I am listening to it right now.............
It is the most beautiful thing I have ever heard in my life.
God is saying I am here, can you hear me?
You are not alone! This music I make is always playing.
You just need to be still long enough to hear it.
Can you hear it?
Close your eyes and imagine..........
The stars are shining that is their song...........
The wind is blowing that is her dance...........
The earth is spinning that is her music...........
The angels singing as they smile at the wonders of creation..........
Why did I get the blessing of the most beautiful sound ever heard?
I heard God tonight! I heard all of His angels’ sing.........
I heard the beauty of all His creations!
He Loves ME!

Jennifer Caccavale copyright 2009

Love Or Miracle

It is a word that she became very familiar with.

The word was Miracle.

Amazingly so, for many years this word pissed her off in the worse of ways!

She was sick of the sympathy.

She was sick of those looks.

She was angry and fed up for the most, but she played along.

Why she asked, Do they really think that I am so special?

She thought these fools.........I'll go along for this ride.

Nothing was ever so serious to her.

Not anymore,

She was fed up with life.

She hated living, she hated smiling, she hated pretending.

Yet she always went along for this ride that some call life.

After about fifteen overdoses, most nearly fatal

She in her fantasy states that she preferred to live in decided that she was invincible.

Possibly not even human.

Maybe even that evil her father always spoke of really lurked with in her?

The confusion was if she was so evil, why did everything hurt so?

Does evil feel empty, alone, misunderstood, and lost?

Does evil feel the deepness of love that it can die inside everyday from the pain?

She felt that she had to prove that she really was such an evil horrible monster,

as she was led to believe by him.

The people that loved her just stood by in miserable pain.

Watching her become this monster they all knew that she was not.

She stood on the other side watching them in their anger, despair, and most of all humiliation by her behaviors.

As the same thoughts came across her mind again, Why?

The pain was too great. She couldn't keep doing this to her loved ones.

She had to go, and it had to work this time!

Living on both sides of life, she didn't even know anymore.......

Was she good, evil, or both?

Sick of looking into those deep dark eyes, so sad, so scared, so angry!

She couldn't bare to ever face him again.

She knew by now the right combinations of the what and how much would work.

When she finally came to, the first thing she saw again were those dark eyes looking up at her.

There he was lying in the hospital bed with her.

He was holding her, and caressing her hair.

He said Mommy are you awake?

As she looked back into his eyes, she just cried.

He said Mommy are you in pain?

Although the physical pain was beyond anything she had ever felt.

And she had felt a lot of pain!

That wasn't why she was crying.

The tears were for all the times when everything was so bad, and she felt so lost....

She never thought to look into those eyes before?

Sure she looked at them, But she hadn't really looked into them in years.

She was to ashamed to look.

Now, she asks herself why all the shame?

The answer was there all along.

In those eyes are pure love.

Untainted love.

Only the purest form of love there is on earth.

A Son's love for his Mother.

When she looks into those eyes, she knows she too is love,

She is not evil, and she is a human being.

She also knows the answer to why she is still here.

He needs her!

Now life is hard. She is very ill.

She is not only human, but she learned she is not invincible either.

Her life may be greatly shortened due to all of those choices.

So now she choses life, no matter how painful!

When the days are hard, and full of pain.........

She reaches back in her memory to that day in ICU.

She opens her eyes and sees his staring right back at her!

She will live, and she must go on.

She gives into that word...........

She is a Miracle!

Head Meets the Heart

I live in this place all alone. '

I am stuck here often.

I dream here.

I fantasize here.

I analyze everything here.

This is a very busy place to be.

This place can be dangerous.

This place is my head.

It can be lonesome.

It can be judgmental.

It usually is far from reality.

I chose to live here because this place is very very safe!

I can dream and fantasize of things to be any way I chose!

There is another problem...........

This other place I live in often.

It feels pain, anger, sadness, and yes emptiness!

It feels Love, Joy, and Happiness!

It feels hope, empathy, and contentment!

This place is my heart!

Here is where the problem lies..........

When my head is stuck in its own little fantasy-land, My heart wakes up in sorrow.

Why oh why is it so difficult for the two to become one?

Can not the head and the heart actually learn to work together?

In my head my dream is to be one with my heart, and then all will be well.

I will FINALLY be at PEACE!

Jennifer Caccavale copyrtight 2009

God Blessed Me With An Angel For A Mother

There are people in our lives that we love, and they love us back. Some people even refer to friends as angels without wings. I truly believe this myself

Then there are very special people that God has such a plan for, a human intellect cannot even imagine it.

You have to live this to understand it. We are the chosen ones, the lucky ones, if I may say so myself.

When God made you, He already had me planned too.

He knew that one day you would be my Mother. He knew what a special person he was going to have to make you. He created you with so much more love then most. He made sure that you had the patience of a Saint. He made sure you had a heart as big as His!

He knew that you were going to define the meaning of unconditional love as a human being. For not many humans really know what that means. God does, and he added that to the extra ingredients he used to make you! Of course this was such a long thought out plan, He started it when he created your Mother. It all began with her. He gave her those special ingredients to be an angel without wings. The tricky part was as a human she had to teach you to use these treasures that she knew God had already given to you. She knew that they were a part of you, but she had to guide you in the right direction to use them. Of course she did as God knew she could, she was a strong, beautiful, loving, Mother. She taught you the true meaning of unconditional love. Then you had me. I am truly blessed to have an angel for a Mother. I am double blessed because I had an angel for a Grandmother too! You are your Mothers' Daughter; I am my Mothers' Daughter, and I WAS BLESSED TO BE RAISED BY ANGELS!

ALL MY LOVE, JENN